I hope that all who read this will find them self's. saying Hmmm? I wonder.? I want to tell you about the light which shines far off on a hill. A hill that as long as you travel you see it is not really any closer. But the light is so beautiful that you want so badly to feast in it's glow. The peace it gives you is so much like bliss. Then one day when you are old and wiser you realize the light is truth and the only way you can get close to it is to become the light. How do you do that you say? An angel whispered to me once. When I was face down and dying. The angel said. what are you going to do? You are almost dead.? What can I do, every thing I do seems to go wrong. You tell me I say almost nasty.! And the Angel said. Forgive everyone for everything they have ever done to you. I stop breathing for a moment. Think , Then I said OK I'll do it. So I did. I say to the angel now what? Immediately the angel said. Now fill your self with love. again the words took my breath away. Thinking about it then I say OK.! And I did that so now cocky I say now what.! Immediately again the angel said now give all your love away. Again I lost my breath. I must have had a puzzled look on my face because the angel said. Love does not live till you give it away. I am breathless. The angel followed with you can not own love.! It must be given to you. If you try to capture it and keep it for your self it dies. It must be given freely. The angel has silenced me. I am dumbfounded and meek in my thoughts and almost in tears. because I know I am in the presence of some thing as close to holy as I have ever known. The angel said love is like a river of living water. The river flows and washes the banks away so the river becomes larger as it flows. so more of the living water will flow. So the more love you give away. The more love you get back to give away. you can never out give love. It gets bigger as you give it away. I am crying with joy and humbled by this light of truth. So I did just as the angel said. I cleansed my self with forgiving each moment and let the river of love flow into my heart. And gave it away to all I met along the way. And I found that those that were hurting and hard and cruel were like sponges that needed more love than anyone else. And they were the most willing to receive love. Those hard cases that everyone loved to hate because they were so tuff. Love softened their hearts and they became the best of friends. The most loving and loyal of all. they had the most to gain. And I found something that I was not expecting. It was this..! The more love I gave away expecting nothing to be given back to me. The more Joy I received. It is like giving gifts at Christmas do you remember how wonderful it makes you feel to give a gift to someone that really is touched by the giving. It is not the gift but that you thought of them. And joy is swelling in your heart. I tell you true.! Forgive fill your self with love and give it away to all you meet no matter who they are. And expect nothing in return. And your joy will be lasting as long as you do this. And as long as you forgive and never hate or have anger again. You will be filled with joy. This I promise you. And you will see others coming toward you with wonder on their face. Because you have become the light of truth shining on the hill top. So beautiful so of wonder. I promise this to be so. If I had millions of dollars. I could give you no greater gift than this truth. You will find one day. That truth became flesh and walks the earth. Love to all Nathan Clay .